Powerful memories

Today is the first day for months since I've had a few hours away from Harry, a belated birthday treat thanks to my friend Mel. We had planned McDonalds and bowling because I'm obsessed with their McDonalds monopoly. Its definitely not helping the waistline! Well we had that and then Mel suggested a place that sells just desserts, I didn't take much convincing I wanted to check it out.

So lovely and sickly.... Completely stuffed think I need to detox now 😉

Its amazing how a few hours can help you recharge and just feel better to not have to constantly worry or be too tired to do anything was nice. I felt happy on the way home I really appreciated what I had just because I hadn't seen Harry for a few hours. I enjoyed myself a lot but I have to admit I missed putting him to bed. Luckily Mike was super daddy, played with him until he got tired and then gave plenty of cuddles until eventually he was fast asleep in the cot even doing my job of laying next to the cot just for reassurance.

On the way home Abba came on and I all of a sudden felt like my mum was watching over me. I had powerful memories of listening to Abba's album on repeat in the car with mum, beks and mims (my 2 younger sisters). I'm sure I remember us all singing along to it while in Cornwall when it was just the 4 of us. It was Chiquitita by Abba and the words really spoke to me, I forgot how much I love singing along to Abba, its like a guilty pleasure haha.

My favourite bit;

'Chiquitita, you and I know
How the heartaches come and they go and the scars they're leaving
You'll be dancing once again and the pain will end
You will have no time for grieving
Chiquitita, you and I cry
But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you
Let me hear you sing once more like you did before
Sing a new song, Chiquitita'

Powerful lyrics and such a powerful voice!

https://youtu.be/p4QqMKe3rwY

I almost felt like my mum was talking to me, I don't know about any of you but I like to believe the ones we loose that we love are watching over us and sending us little messages to help us stay strong. I almost started to crying but I felt so much stronger like she willing me on, I mean this was the first song as I turned the radio on for my journey home. Maybe its just a really powerful memory but I for one will be playing a lot more music around Harry! 💓

Loving the poppies at City of Culture while back in Hull today :)