Yesterday was mothers day and my birthday. Running up to the day I found it hard to get excited or even plan anything as its almost 8 years this year since my mum passed away. Understandable I haven't been looking forward to this day, especially as one of my early memories is from when mothers day fell on my birthday. I remember swapping presents with my mum and finding it funny, I think I was 6 the first time. It was great being able to give my mum a present in return receiving one myself it was like a mini Christmas just for me and my mum.
My amazing mum 💜
Its strange how many times that memory has popped into my head this last few weeks everytime I've seen an advert or competition saying mothers day 26th March. Its hard when your mum is no longer with you. I know I haven't wrote a blog post for a while but when I haven't been busy I've been deep in thought about both my mum and my brother Mike. I found myself looking at old photos thinking I'm now 2 years older then Mike was almost 10 years ago when he passed away. It was such a strange feeling to look at his photos and realise how young he was. Last time I was younger then he was and thought I still had time to live up to his accomplishments, he did so much in a short time travelling with his job.
My hero big brother 😊
The point of this post is for me to realise what I do have and use the memories and the drive to make them both proud, sort my health out and follow my dreams. I'm so tired of putting everything off and making my moods yo-yo. I can make my own luck right?!
I'm so grateful for what I do have now. This year we live somewhere miles better with a lot more places to take Harry to explore. I've been so lucky with my comping this last 2 months. I've learnt so much about comping and money saving in general. I just need to remember to have faith in myself and somehow find an energy reserve! If anyone has any tips on how to find more energy while chasing a 15 month old please comment below 😉
On Saturday we had a picnic for my birthday it was lovely day, nice and sunny. Harry loved running around on the westwood chasing a ball and playing. Its the simple things in life that make all the difference in the world. Even though I was up from a silly time on my birthday/mothers day, and loads during the night, I have to say being a mum is amazing seeing him go from a small little baby to running around chasing a wall. Best love in the world. Here's to more adventures as the weather gets better and sharing them with you guys. Thanks for reading 😍 Ellie xxx
Harry enjoying a sausage roll at his first ever picnic.